Somehow i felt like i cant continue my post before this. A lot of things has been happening around me and along the way, i think i have changed, and it's not for the better. I really felt like i am the lowest organism(please DO NOT read it as orgasme) due to several reasons. And it is not just affecting my life but also my friends that has been walking with me in this bumpy road. My emotional side has been raging inside of my mind that my pals are getting worried. becauseI seldomly smiles nowadays and the worst part is I cant even be honest about it. Not without destroying everything in my life.
It is 4.40 a.m when Im writing this post. Reminiscing all the things that I have been doing with everyone in my current life makes it getting worst. Dreaming about a particular person for few days in a row. Dreaming abou all the things that we have been doing all along. Is there any meaning behind all of these? Or it is just a Test....
4.50 a.m: My mind is going into blank mode soon. And yet this suffering won't go away anytime soon..
5.20 a.m: Can i still retain all the (sweet) smiles as such as in these moments? Can i still smile like how i used to? Will they still be with me in the future? I wish Mouth of Truth can tell me that..
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