Race for the Galaxy

Hurm I really hate when plans are changed, yet no one give any sort notification. Don't any of you realize that some people might have some other plans that have to be cancelled just to accommodate to your plan? Yes I'm venting now but urgh, this is unacceptable.

I hate people nagging. But, who likes? To make this worse, I heard people been nagging( despite it was not targeted at me) for the whole day today, and man, I need a break.

Okay, I'm done venting. Now, let's talk about something good. I had a good time this few days. I don't need to bring my super duper heavy laptop to college anymore to keep me from getting bored. Instead, now I got a lightweight card game that can be finished within an hour. Oh how great is that. Now that I don't have to worry about finding a plug point, or heat from the laptop, I only need to worry getting a space large enough to accommodate my games. Well, at least this game allows me to play by myself.

Facebook Devalues Musicians

It has been a huge trend nowadays where companies such as Volkswagen which uses Facebook to create a hype for their products and this is done by organizing competitions where Facebookers need to 'like' the contestants. It is a cheap way, or perhaps, even a cost-free, non-hassle for the organizers. This creates a huge,biased decisions to select the winner as it seems like THE CONTESTANTS ASKED FRIENDS,FRIENDS OF FRIENDS, & FAMILY TO 'LIKE' THEM.

Now, tell me how this musicians that won the competition truly deserved the title or the prize. It looks like the industry is deciding their best based on who knows more people, not who can play the best music.   I still remember the golden age of Myspace, where the site only acts as a platform for indie musicians to showcase their talents, not as  a capitalists tools to 'use' musicians for their own profit. Of course, this new 'hip' band that won the competition might not last long because of the insincere way of winning, but how sure are we nowadays that the next 'hip' band is not famous because of the same modus operandi.

In fact, while people think that this is the indie era where a lot of independent musicians come to surface and become famous in the mainstream world, I highly doubt so. For me, this is the end of the golden era where independent musicians stop playing msuci to express themselves but to gain profit or become famous. I miss the time where I listened to Butterfingers for its provocative lyrics and many others which has surprised me.

May this dark age be over soon.

Daily Rant: Fragments

Place: Musa Bistro
Activity: Having a deep thought

Kinda feel like I'm alone at this current moment. Speaker are blasting some soft 80's rock/disco songs, Not really sure. Well, there is Jeremy, sleeping on the swing at the current time. KLCC is brightly lit, hundreds, perhaps thousands, of cars has passed by my seat. Everyone seems eager to get back to their destination, ignoring others.  My fingers are shaking, typing this post. I really really cannot shake off this feeling. Hurm thinking back what i have been doing and experiencing for this past few years, changed me a lot. Some moments are difficult to handle, but that is how human grows up right. Each time those memories crept up my mind unanticipatedly, my knees will go weak, my heart will pound like there is some kind of a timer attached to it, not a pretty experience to have.

One question. WHY? I felt like I'm an unclean one, as shards of these memories stabbed me repeatedly. Jokes are sling all around, yet nothing heals. Loneliness. Some people bear with it. Some are content. Some people, forced to love it. No, this emptiness is not about love. This is a journey, searching for shards or fragments that were left by me when I embarked on this life adventure.

Maybe it is the city life. Or perhaps, our mentality. Greeting strangers seems wrong to the uninitiated, being kind surprised others. Value? I wouldn't say that it is non-existent, but how much does it worth? We are not humble, we are just, polite. I am just an empty vessel, ever longing for the little fragments to fill me. How about you?

Daily Rants: Distant

I guess this is how i think about myself.  It is either i am the one who is setting aside myself from the others or i am just another being in everyone's life. I walk alone, I keep everything to myself, and now I'm wondering why. As I see myself in the mirror, I'm wondering whether my other self in the mirror feel any sort of loneliness. I forgot since when did i keep my distance to everyone else, and why. Whenever everyone is smiling and having joy, I will sit at one corner and smile alone, enjoying the moment. Whenever everyone rushes to celebrate something, I made excuses. I see pictures of them, but not mine. I don't feel sad, yet I'm not happy.

Looking at the others' back. Heh.

Provocative Thought 03: Gray Line

Haven't been writing for so long that i felt blogger.com is almost a stranger. I still remember the time when i was so hyped up about writing for blog, and now i wish i still retain the same old passion. I think I'm a sad old man now, maybe due to my song playlist. oh well, enough with the chit-chat for now.

I believe that there is nothing that be considered as a pure black and white. there is always a fine line that differentiating these two, or a gray line where just and unjust are judged from perspectives. I think this view of mine helps me in evaluating a person. Humans have a tendency to view themselves as the white dwellers and judge others who are different as black dwellers. It is so bad that these white dwellers start to assume that they know every reason of black dwellers' action and reaction. We are playing the role of God, passing judgement and punishment without even thinking twice.

Unnecessary Thoughts 09: Architecture of Humanity

I believe that some events  that happened to us in our lives are scripted. Some people might say it's fate or miracle, while the non-believers will simply shout coincidence. However, despite all this scripted events, it all boils down to us, on how we gonna make use of the events.

Here's a story, happened on 2010's New Year. After a drinking session with Jeremy, both of us decided for a dinner at Clique. Somehow, a couple from Netherlands decided to have a drinks at Clique on their first day in Malaysia and miraculously/coincidentally/fatefully (You can cross anything that is irrelevant to you) sat beside us.  Now it all boils down to any of us: Me, Jeremy, or one of the couple to begin a conversation.  If it's any of you guys, will you greet a stranger that sit next to you in a restaurant/train/anything? So now here I am, made a bold move by greeting them. All of us became friends that night, they bought us a round of drinks and they saw a spectacular fireworks on their first day here.

In my opinion, this chain of events doesn't happen right away but from a collection of decisions made by many people simultaneously which someday going to trigger certain events. It's like there is a type of Architecture that plans everything in this world, but we, as a Builder, will decide on what sort of quality will the structure be. I believe that this is the Architecture of Humanity.

Unnecessary Thought 08: Future

Time: 2 a.m

Place: Wangsa Maju's playground

Had a talk with my own cousin about works and such when it suddenly hits me that most of my peers around my age are working or going to work soon, but im still stuck at doing diploma. I have been wasting my time for several years because of my stupidity. I also realized that there is still a long road ahead for me to catch up with them, and i only have 5 years to get enough money for my 'settling down' plan.  And despite of all the planning that i did to make sure everything went smooth, future might hold a surprise for me.

I hate future for the fact that it is unpredictable, and sometimes, even after doing the best that you can, the result will still be bad. I know the term of silver lining bla bla bla, but that is uttered only by the people who is not experiencing the bad moment. I'm simply tired of listening to all those meaningless consolation because it doesn't help. Tell me how can it help. In fact, usually people don't pay heed to all those consolation and at times, it only caused more grievance.

I know the uncertainty of future give us a sparks of hope, but don't any of you wish that you want to know what will happen next so that you can prevent it? Don't you worry that your kids might turn up as a bad person, the business that you are handling right now might go for bankruptcy and how about, if your spouse is going to cheat on you one day? Isn't it scary being left in the dark for all those reasons? The reason why I hate future so much? I spent thousands of bucks to get my certificate, what if the job that i get isn't the one that pay much. Owh and i'm wondering who am i destined to be with.